One for today

Upon reflection of her current status

I don't know if I will find out
what 40 feels like
but 30 will probably feel much like 28 does now

It mostly feels like tired
it feels like an empty dish sitting
on a crumb crusted counter
that I'm simply too unmotivated to wipe down

28 feels like I've waited too long to matter
like these idiotic flowers that start to bloom
in the middle of March
unaware that it is not 70 degrees yet
they will wither too soon in the season
and will be stripped of their vibrancy

28 is no longer idealistic and laden with
causes and fights against 'the man'
it is about getting by on less than
10 dollars per hour
brief hugs at the front door that never linger
and the crushing reality
of a comfortable marriage